so i'm officially sleeving(tattooing) my left arm and i will begin deep meditation tonight to gain some clarity on the permanent change to my body. spirit.ego.energy.consciousness.et al. feels like:
hot infernos burn
all of me
This One is
for loving Goddess Kali
to gracefully dance
skin, bones and blood.
All which remains;
---and on to something else that's on my gemini brain.
i, India, Am realising that the 'seekers' quest is ... a waste of time.
What is to find, that isn't already present?
What is there to gain, when one already has everything right now?
Just the act of seeking is itself the acknowledgement of not being whole.
Why teach with words when silence itself is the communication knowledge present within?
Freedom? It's always at hand, one just has to Be free. Nothing holds, nothing chains, nothing ... or, no-thing ever changes. Our essence is bound by nothing, and the' no-thing' which we are is eternal and ultimately powerful, and ... within that space there is nothing to do or prove.
What am I trying to transcend and grow past? Illusions that don't exist ... it's like jogging on a treadmill in front of a giant virtual reality television screen or somthing similiar.
eye'm learning to turn off the machine and go live.
Living? What is that? Living only happens when a person stops serving their delusions and illusions, and serves the Essence of their being, the Essence found in all life and energy, with their Whole Heart, Mind and Doing. One lives when serving that Essence as they are meant to. Which, for me, hasn't unfolded fully, but .. hey, its all about the journey and not just the big chocolate or prehaps rainbow cake at the end.
It's pretty simple. I already found it, but it's so simple, so my ego attempts to still doubt it.
blah! ;) but give thanks dammit!