Thursday, August 21, 2008

Moving out of Atlanta for school: It's Official!

NOVEMBER 1st December 28.



*Everything is set to go.

I can't believe I finally did it.

I am so grateful for ALLL my experiences in Atlanta, I am finally moving forward.

This blog may be on hold 'til further notice.

SO much gratitude to the creator and ancestors for guidance, love, and holding me tightly and my ex-fiance' (spirit brother) for simply being there and believing in ME. I am LOVE! I AM LOVE! I AM HEALTHY! I CAN DO IT!!! HELL YEAH, IMMA BE A MEDICAL DOCTOR YALL, combining alternative and conventional medicine! GRATITUDE, AH!

hugging myself,
India, this one is for you mum. I know that I'm never alone. Thank you.

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

SUNSHINE, plus a hot track

I feel like I'm am sunshine :)


"The thing that I'm into is the philosophy of the music. I love the surprise of things, the accidents...just the sound of a word, to try to express them in the best way, so that the emotion is totally revealed." - Beth Gibbons (Portishead)

sounds like love-making to me, Beth




I LoooOOOOve what Mos Def did to this ol' Isley Brothers' song.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Surrender




I surrender

"I will fight no more forever"

my inner self concurs...

I surrender


no reason to struggle with myself

I surrender


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all is



:::



I am



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that is all

i know








so......

In my wanting, I need to learn to not want
yet I still 'want' to surrender
and in wanting it so badly I know not
that I've surrendered already

I am desperately attempting to cling onto more of what I already am
I have all that I need, so I need to recognize
that needs are always met
yet I forget
and then comes regret
regret for not having "real- eye"-zed sooner
for not being up to my own ridiculous standard
for what 'standard' can be set on
~a fluid of change
I cannot be set
there in my impermanence
wanting some permanence
the conundrum has my head reeling
and floods me with such feeling
~all is love

As always, i'm so grateful

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Untittled mutterings

I love my life.

Sure it's not perfect. I have trust issues. Major ones. I don't easily allow people into my center. After my last relationship with a woman who was periodically dishonest throughout the entire on again/off again, unsupportive relationship and my total disconnection from my 5 known family members in the US, I threw my hands in the surrendering air.

And still I love my life. I do, I do. It's like no one can take away my sweetness...forever. I lose it for a minute, then it comes back, and it penetrates anything that I touch. Powerful!

Every day I am outside biking the city, I remind myself to be conscious. I even send out energy to cars, and other bikers, skaters, and children around me, that they, too, love their lives enough to be conscious of it, and those around. I’m not ready to let it go; to throw in the towel, or to walk away from the sun shining through my window, the smiles, the outdoors, the arts, my bead collection, photography, the music, the love. NO! I’m not there yet. There are so many things I have to do. I mean, I've been waiting for August 11, 2008 for a month now. Two days left until my big day!!!

I have things to do, like climb the pyramids of Egypt, skinny-dip in South France after reading Anais Nin by the shore, sky-dive, grow a successful full garden, take an African Safari trip, learn to compost, be in somebody's film, ride a camel, make love on a forest floor, live in London, make love on a train, see the sun rise over Rohtas Fort, take a year off from working and backpack internationally, become a Natropath Doctor (ND), save many lives and cure cancer, publish a book, learn to prolong my orgasms, learn French and Spanish, be in a bellydance show, send a message in a bottle, fall deeply in love -- helplessly and unconditionally, have Picasso moment of creation, drive across America coast to coast and make love in every state, find a job that I really love, go to Walden Pond and read Thoreau while drifting in a canoe, shower in a waterfall.....just to name a few. The wine is still in the cellar...sort of speak--if I drank and had a cellar.

I’m breathing. I’m breathing in every single breath available, and I’m saying to life and death, “I know that you are one. For now, I sit on the flipside of death, where life is illuminated and beautiful as a curvy highly-melaninated woman in the morning sun. Like John Mayer says in his song Gravity, “just keep me where the light is." I agree.


Friday, August 08, 2008

India's - Affirmations




I have affirmations listed in every room of my place for myself to continuously affirm and for others to see the truth as I know it to be so! In some way, my blog has been my virtual room for me to share my 'stuff.' Any boi, did/do/will i forever have some 'stuff' to share. So here GOES my deliciousness!!! 15 affirmations:

1. I AM spiritually, emotionally, physically, mentally, psychically, financially, and sexually healthy!!

2. I love myself and I AM lovable. YUM! I am appreciative of myself....all of me. I am a divine, magnificent expression. I am thankful for all my goodness.

3. Every thought I think, even the ones that I don't say aloud, is creative. SUCH a magic woman I AM!

4. I deserve the BEST and I accept the best. Thank you universe for the love honey.

5. MY income is constantly increasing. MY money is working for me. I am financially secure and debt-free.

6. I absolutely trust the process of LIFE.

7. I open new doors to life anytime I am ready.

8. I am at peace.

9. ALL is absolutely wonderful and well in my world!

10.I love to go beyond other people's fears and limitations. I say YES I CAN to it all. Hell YES!

11. I AM ONE FOXY, juicy, fierce, succulent, graceful but sassy, athletic, sensual, fabulous, loving, kind, generous, assertive, confident, healthy, creative, healing, financially-prosperous, African/Women/Earth-centered, globe-trotting woman. This i KNOW!!! An aside: I love the name/word GRACE. i do, i do.

12. I am unfolding in fulfilling ways. Only good can come to me. I now express health, happiness, prosperity, and peace of mind!

13. I rest very well during the night. My mind is at rest, my body is at rest, my spirit is peace. My head is clear as the Colorado sky.

14. I am doing what I LOVE and making people healthier every single day of my life I understand my purpose in life and I am wholistically and financially successful at what I do.

15. I am so grateful every single moment of my life. Only good lies before me. It doesn't really matter to me what happens, cause I know it's going to be Gooooood! AH!!!!!

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Bike-bus or bus-bike



I'm a big proponent of public transit, and I like to bike as much as possible, or what I call bike-bus or bus-bike, depending on the order that it's done. Marta has a little rack on the front of its buses that allows me to load my bike safely. Now learning to use the rack can be quite painful and embarrassing, but once you get the hang of it, it's simply love. Since being 'truly' car-free has been a rather seamless experience, I don't plan on owning an automobile larger than a Vespa or People in near or distant future. Whenever I need to travel a great distance, I'll just rent a ZipCar by the hour or an Enterprise car for the day. It works! While riding, I am granted opportunities to read great books (which I adore), write, doodle, dream, move about in the elements (sunshine or rain), meet fantastic Atlantans, or just do nothing. Bus-biking or bike-busing has fostered, and really help develop, my independent, self-reliant spirit. After a long day of biking, I feel healthier and fitter than ever~. ANNND, I don't have the foggiest idea what gas prices are these days :D!
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Ok, so gear is important! I typically bike in my regular ol' clothes, no spandex for me, except under skirts occasionally. I like to wear comfortable shoes; my staple eco-friendly shoes are made by Simple . If I wear a helmet (yeah, I don't always wear one....i tell you why later), I tie my hair up with fabric just so I don't look like I've been in a fight when the helmet comes off. It doesn't prevent you from looking like a total dork in the helmet unfortunately.


My REI fanny/backpack: I have learned that I have to spend $$ on better equipment because it saves time, money, and lots of frustration. I even have room on the side for extra bottled water. I like to carry a couple bottles of water, a bike light, a few snacks, some kleenix, and a good great book. Currently reading Octavia Butler's "Parable of Sower."

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Bike legs after riding approx 6 miles: WHA? You knew I'd find a way to throw this one in :)


The worst incident I've experienced since being a bike commuter was when an officer "pulled" me over with sirens and all and asked for my driver's license. Apparently, I ran a stop sign*. Follow the rules, or get a ticket and have your bike impounded. I don't know if it was a situation of 'profiling' or simply disdain for a biker(yeah that's real), but whatever the case it was stoopid. You may find that a small bit of people dislike you and your bike, but whatever. It's because you are doing something that they are simply afraid of doing for a myriad of silly reasons. Anyway, don't give up no matter what and if you have a day/week that you forego biking for a 'silly' reason, forgive yourself, and get your booty back in gear asap. It's worth it. LOVE